There is 9 days left for mothers’ days but I haven’t got a mom to celebrate her mothers’ day. Furthermore, my mom died 2 years ago on a mother’s day. And it will be the 3rd year of her death. I think I will celebrate with our neighbour Tuğçe sis.

Because she is caring for me for 3 years. And she is like a mom to me. Finally mothers’ day came. I was so excited because I planned a surprise for Tuğçe sis. I know she will love it so much but I was still a little bit excited. Everything was okay. Cake, candles, presents, foods and beverage has already be prepared. We invited her to the party room. She was so emotional and started to cry. Anyway this day also finished. Everyone was happy but I was not. Cause I couldn’t celebrate my mom’s, mothers’ day and was feeling so alone. Then, I decided to look at my mom’s clothes and things. Every year I look at them and console with my loss. I opened the box. It was smelling so good because it was my mom’s smell. And I started to look at them. I was searching for my mom’s green cardigan. I love it so much because we had a lot of memories with it. When I came home my mom was meeting me with this green cardigan, or when I was happy,sad I was hugging her and I smelled her extremely good smell. But now I couldn’t find. I kept looking at the clothes towards the bottom of the box. Finally I found it at the end of the box. I think, I wanted to protect it that’s why I had put it at the bottom of the box. I took it and hugged it. It comforted me. But something fell on the floor. It was a paper and something was written on it. I started to read it. It was writing like that: “Dear my daughter, you may be see this paper much later but I want to write it.  Firstly I love you as much as the worlds. If something happens to us don’t be sad go on your life like old days. And if something happens to us I know that there is always someone to look after you. Don’t worry about it. That's all I have to say this.” I was so happy because I believe that my mom never left me alone. Even if she is not with her body present, her heart is always with me. That day was so relaxing. At the end I slept with this happiness. And whenever I feel bad, I read this letter and become happy. I happily continued my life knowing that someone is supporting me.